my retrospect; looking back at the past...

Friday, January 23, 2009

Tired,tired and tired.....

Its CNY Hols for 4 days,and i gt alot of homeworks to be done and aft the hols 1 day later i got 2 tests,damn it...I still got art to do and i spend all the time i have doing it and b4 blogging i did some art work and i'm really tired, sleeping at 11pm and waking up at 6 am almost everyday except weekends, i feel tat i'm gonna break down any time..But i thank this short hols coz its to put myself together again and focus on the future and forget the past coz it can't be change no matter wat u do,i'm lately doing some running to prepare myself for the coming NAFA test,damn it la,hw tired can my life go,only now i got time to blog and i post quite alot today coz i'm not sure whether i gt time tmr, since now my grandma is sick and i hope she will get well soon, i really hope... My life is really2 shattered to pieces,first losing a fren,then losing and kitten tat i adore so much then wats next,haiz wat a thing to start the year wif, i'll spend some time this hols to put myself together again and keep standing strong,i dun wanna noe aniting abt other ppl and wateva they wan to say abt me,coz i hav no time and i wan to move on...tats all...

my retrospect; 2:32 AM

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life now.

My life now is free and easy, and nothing got to do wif tat person, coz only makes my life difficult and full of probs(mostly from her,jealousy,ego and wateva that she could probably find fault abt), haiz...Now its only me and Fyda i guess,nt sure la... i guess being alone is still the best so ppl dun backstab me and say nonsense stuff tat only reflects on them, nowadays its difficult to find a true friend,maybe it doesnt even exist in this world coz ppl tend to wear a mask tat covers their true self so we have to be careful wif who we mix ard wif coz once ure to late its over, tat's when they show their true colours to u and tend to backstab u like they are the only humans who have feelings and not others, enuff at this,i'll juz forget and not forgive coz it has put a deep scar on my heart tat bleed everytime i see tat person, btw i've join the art club so tat i'll have a good conduct at the end of the year coz laz year was such a waste coz i was qualified for the good progress award or merit bursary award but bcoz i didn't hav a CCA and had a fair conduct i wasn't eligible for it,I was one of the top 20% in my cohort,damn it.But this year i'm gonna study hard and achieve tat good conduct and try ma luck again this year..This year is a tough year coz its no more honeymoon year for me,i'm now preparing myself for my O-level nxt yr, and i bet you its gonna be a very fast year b4 i sit for my O-level,wow... Nw no more wasting time and everything,muz b focus....

my retrospect; 2:15 AM

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Somebody

Today at school was a roller coaster ride, firstly Fyda fought wif Fred... It was in the morning after morning assembly when fred find fault wif fyda,wateva la kan dun wish to tell the whole story coz it only makes my blood boil,so now really pissed wif that SOMEBODY, really hope she changed coz she's goin from bad to worse,i shud have listen other peoples saying about her attitude but eventually i didn't and nw i'm suffering bcoz of her,wat the hell la,always back-up for her so tat people won't say those things about her and now see wats happen,I've wasted exactly 1.5 years bcoz of her i shud have concentrated more on studies than her coz she doesn't seem to appreciate anything,last time say only dun wan our friendship to break now look who's talking and wanting this friendship to end,so much for your sweet talking,dun always think you are right for once think about others coz not only u hav problems, everyone have its a matter how u cope with it.Say people lie straight to your face but u urself lie straight to OUR face,wateva la i think u are the one who must get a life coz without u in my life its like the best thing i've done aft so long (think b4 u want to say aniting),its so obvious tat u are jealous but refuse to admit and always say lies aft lies to back-up for urself,enought la,i think its time for u to face reality and dun say aniting abt people juz bcoz u dun like them coz it only reflects u,i guess u are the one that is self centred

my retrospect; 1:58 AM

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Cats update

My cat Jane successfully gave birth to three healthy kittens on 16 Jan at exactly 6 pm,one of the kitten is black with some white patches and the second and third are striped grey and white with some light brown shadings,at first there was four kittens but unfortunately the fourth died on last Sunday bcoz he was born with some problems, that is deformed head,it was so sad for me to see him given birth and then see him die juz like tat without saying my last words to it,we named it precious coz he was very precious to me to survived for 1 day.It was a sad memory for a starting year but i manage to overcome it.I guess i'll see him in the next world someday...Now the three kittens that are living happily with their mum Jane is 1 week old, i'm so happy for them, my family named them, Onix,the black one and the second and third is Topaz and Crystal.2 male and one female.Happy 1 week old Onix,Topaz and Crystal...

my retrospect; 1:48 AM

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